Frustrated

I am so frustrated.  I am trying to do what I need to do.  I just cannot get to the emotion of what has happened.  Today in Group we shared our stories.  For me, it was not eventful.  Like I was talking about someone else.  No big deal.  Its like stating facts.  Like here is the evidence.  And I don't care. 

I know that it's not true.  I do care.  I just cannot get thru the wall I have built around.  I don't trust myself with the depth of the feelings.

Today at Group there were only 2 of us.  Looks like the other girl may be canceling.  I am disappointed.  I had hope that this process would help me.  

Frustrated.